Sunday, October 26, 2008

Back from the Land Before Time

Hello everyone,

Its been a really tough couple of months. The new job was grueling and I was so exhausted, and I was battling the blues, and I had no stomach for writing.
But I've overcome all that! The job has settled down somewhat, and things are looking better in the romantic arena and the blues are gone for now, so I will try to catch up with everything.
Work has been hell. When I was being interviewed, they asked me how I felt about occasional overtime. I know that in the finance department, there will be overtime at month-end, its all part of the job. But I had no idea I was supposed to be working 12 hour days almost every day. Its almost like Survivor ....whoever makes it to the year-end, will get their bonus (mega bucks$$$), and if you don't make it...oh well ...toodles! Less money to be paid out!

My kids are doing great. I am so proud of these 2 boys. Don't get me wrong, we all have our moments of doppiness, but on the whole they are great. Alex is in college, which here in Quebec is halfway between last year of high school and first year of college. He is doing really well with his classes, which is film studies, but then he had better be since he chose them!! He is also working part time at a Halloween Store that opened for eight weeks only, so with all the hours he is putting in, he has very little time to go out with friends. But even though its taking up so much of his time and he is exhausted, he hangs in there for the money(he needs to pay back his Dad for the Playstaion 3 he got on Boxing Day) and because he knows its all over after Halloween. He told me he'll take a rest when the job is done.
Andrew is in his second year of high school and he is also doing very well. This is such a huge releif for us, since he was diagnosed as ADD and was on medication for a few years in elementary school. He doesn't take any mdeication now, and he is doing so well. When he does well, he is motivated to work harder and this results in even better marks! All this by himself. I don't have to get on his case to do homework and he manages to organise his stuff without my checking up on him. Occasionally he'll screw up, but hey....we all do! I tell them every day how proud I am of them!

Things are going well in the romance department. Perhaps not as quickly as I would want, but I have to accept and live within the restrictions of our reality. At this moment we are both supporting our kids and there is too much going on to allow us to be together as a single unit. It bothered me in the begining, cause I thought it was all like a hollywood movie....you know.....your kids....my kids....great big happy family. Now I know that this is not real, that we all have our stuff and I have to say that I am content with the way things are right now! I get to see him when we have time and its been really good when we are together, so much so that I can live with this for as long as it takes to get our "ducks lined up in a row". B and I have something special that neither one of has ever experienced before and we both want to nurture it into what I beleive will be a wonderful life together. However long it takes, I am committed, and I beleive he is too. Only time will tell, and I am willing to give it all I have.

That's it for now......I'll get to mere stuff this week, as the kids are with their Dad and I am home alone!!!

Have a great day!!!

Saturday, August 30, 2008

Not Dead!

Holly Molly!! Has it really been three weeks since my last post?!?!?!

I have been so busy with the new job that when I get home I am a vegetable and function accordingly. I sit in front of the TV and my computer and the only strenuous thing I do is eat. Ok, some nights I may actually wash the dish.
There have been some days that I am in the office at 7 AM and finish at 7 PM ... which for me is incredible given that I am used to just waking up at 7 to get to work. These people love meetings. Why the heck was I ever jealous of people being in meetings before? Its not fun!

Lots of things to talk about, but the most important is my kids coming home from their vacation in Greece! I missed them more that I had thought I would. Ok, it took almost 4 weeks of peace and solitude, but I came to miss the jabbering and squabbling that goes on here. Yes they had a great time, but please keep in mind they were mainly in the company of my mother and my aunt... a 70 year old and an 80 year old. The exciting lifestyle of two partying teenagers was a little toned down! They came back with lots of beautiful pictures and videos, of which I have only seen a small portion still.

So now they are back and we are doing the back to school scramble. Great dance, that one! I am not the most organized person in the world, and its still summer out here and its hard to have everything in place for the start of school. At least here in my area, they ease them in with a couple of half days and then full time after the labour day weekend. Younger son's school has a uniform this year and we haven't quiet gotten everything yet, and I still need to hem his pants. Everyone, please do not worry, as I turn into superwoman when I am facing a deadline and everything will be perfect by Tuesday.

That's it for now....I promise more blogging later.... just want to get started on this loooong weekend.

Have a great day!

Friday, August 8, 2008

I went to see the movie Mama Mia on Tuesday with my friends, and OMG it was fantastic! I went because I wanted to see the Greek locations, and because of ABBA, but I loved the movie. I was totally blown over. It was the first time in my life that a movie finished and I wanted to see it all over again! I want to drag my BF to see it with me this weekend. It may take a bit of begging and pleading, but I want him to see it too. And I will be the first in line to buy the DVD as soon as it comes out for sale! Yes! I loved it that much!
I didn't expect to do all that crying though. That came as a total surprise! The movie brought back a lot of memories from when I was 19 and I had spent 10 months in Greece. It was in 1977 and a lot of the songs are from that time. The songs flooded me with all the emotions of being 19 again and missing those carefree days. Dang! but I had a wonderful time that year with my cousin. Imagine if you will, two young and crazy girls let loose in Greece during the disco era! Did we ever have fun! That year I visited 5 of the Greek Islands. And not just a quickie visit, no this was for a few days to a week on each one. Some were with my cousin, and some with my mom and aunts, but each visit was wonderful. My only regret is that I wish I had taken lots more pictures! Looking back now, I wish I had appreciated how wonderful I looked back then. I was no model, but gosh darn being 19 really helps!

The movie also made me cry, cause Donna's (played by Meryl Streep) daughter was growing up and getting married and moving on with her life, and I was thinking of my friend's daughter, who is now around 23, and bf's 2 girls who are 25 and 21, and I was thinking about my son who just turned 19 and how things are different and they are no longer our babies. Soon they too will start on their life away from us, where their focus will be on their friends, their careers, their relationships and later their own families. I know this the right thing, that our children grow and build their own lives, but it was only yesterday that I knew everything my sons did and went to and thought about. And now, I know there is a lot I am not a part of, and I wonder, when did this happen?????
Don't get me wrong, I love having independent children, thus having more free time for me, and yet the changes need a bit of getting used to.

Ok, enough mushy stuff, go out there and see the movie for yourselves, its really good.

Work has been really hard this week, but on the bright side, it has flown by. I blinked and it was Thursday! And payday! Yea!!!!

I am so looking forward to the weekend cause there will be cuddle time with my darling B! Perhaps we may go visit his mom on Saturday, as his oldest sister is in town visiting with her husband, and she is the only one of his 5 sisters that I have not met yet. What is that you say? Yes, you heard right, my sweetie has 5 older sisters, and he survived! I think that's what makes him so wonderful! Perhaps one day I'll tell you all about it.
Have a great day!

Monday, August 4, 2008

Just Trudging Along

Where to start? Things are Ok. Nothing special, except that I am so overwhelmed at work with new stuff! This isn't the type of job where they train you, and you take notes, then you do it yourself and all is well. I knew it was going to be hard and I was prepared to work as hard as I needed to get to this next level. Its not just accounts receivables and collection calls like I was used to, this. is. FINANCE! Hey they don't pay the big bucks for nothing.
Unfortunately for me, I am not sleeping very well, probably due to the stress and worry of the new job. I am so tired at work, that I am constantly yawning, and it does not look good! I have to say though, that everyone there is so nice. They are always saying that I shouldn't worry, that is was the same for them and that it will get better. They really are sweet! But like I mentioned before, they are worried that I will leave. Ha ... it ain't gonna happen! I'm sticking around till the day I retire. They will need a crowbar to pry me out!

In other news tonight, the BF, B, is kinda down cause his kids are all over the age of majority, and yet they function like they are 5 years old! And to make matters worse, they took away the coffee machines where he works, and his shift is 2 PM till 12:30 AM. Yes! that's right, he'll be working till after midnight without coffee, every night, starting tonight! It will not be a pretty sight! I spoke to him a few minutes ago, and he is starting to lose it! Poor baby! I mean coffee! How could they?

My kids are still in Greece and I miss them so very much! Oh sure I call them, but its just not the same. Also, they are not able to upload any of their photos for me to see, because of some glitch, and I am so impatient to see what they have done and where they've been. I spoke to them this Sunday, (big son's 19th birthday ... Happy B. Day Ax!) and they said they had gone to this great restaurant whose tables are on little gazebos over the water. Each group has its own little hut. And keeping with the theme, they actually ate fish! Be still my heart! I shouldn't be surprised, as they grill the fish on charcoal, sprinkle it with oregano and squeeze fresh lemon on top. With home made fries, its divine. I dare anyone to ruin it with ketchup! I just have to hang on for two more weeks and then they will be back!

I will do my best to get to bed early tonight. I really want to do well at work, and I have to be and look alert .... the yawning has GOT to stop!!!
Now everybody go out there and see Mama Mia and Traveling Pants 2, cause they are both filmed in Greece and then come back and tell me if you liked it. The best essay gets to stay with me in Greece next year!! Just kidding! Maybe not!
Have a great day!

Saturday, July 26, 2008

Ditzy 101

Its been a busy and lazy kind of week, if that makes any sense. I have been at work every day, so all that previous free time is gone now, and when I get home I am just too lazy to do anything. It doesn't help that I am home all alone, what with the kids being in Greece. How nice is it to be completely free to do nothing if you feel like it. No dinners to cook, no picking up for anyone, no laundry if you have enough clean underwear to get through the week! Sorry, is that TMI?

The first day at work was such a riot! Within the first hour, I got my boss in trouble, am I not amazing or what. Is that a record? Our building has security locks everywhere and to get around you need these magnetic cards to unlock the doors. Because I started working there only 2 days after the job offer, they had not had time to set me up with the card and I needed to go downstairs to arrange parking for my car. My boss gave me his card and told me to go down to the security office to get set up. Well, when I got there, being the dummy that I am, I plopped the card on the counter and started asking for information. They barely heard a word I said. The gaurd's eyes went directly to my boss's card and asked where I got that. Being the clueless one that I am, I of so innocently said, "Why, my boss gave it to me" Picture wides eyes and cutie eylash batting. She grabbed that card off the counter so fast, it was almost a magic trick and then turned to me and said "I have to confiscate this card. Its against policy to lend your card to others. He will have to come here and pick it up himself." OMG! Can you hear the thunder claps? I have only been on the job an hour and already I have fucked up! I had to return to my boss's office, and let him know that security had taken his card and they needed him to go down there. He was really nice about it though. He was mad, but not at me, and he was nice enough to repeat it over and over that it wasn't my fault.
I found out later that week, that there has been some turnover in that department and my boss is being super nice with me, because he wants me to stay. In fact there was a bit of a running joke, where some of the other ladies (all very nice people) pretended they were surprised I was back the next morning. Little do they know, that I have wanted to work in this company for at least 2 years, and now that I am finally in, you could not get me out if you tried!

Friday was B's (devoted bf) daughter's 21st birthday and she wanted to see a movie and have pizza at home, and that's what we did. We went to see Stepbrothers (her choice-very funny but some may find it too coarse) and then we got some pizza and beer and went back to their place. It was fun and we talked and laughed a bit. B plied me with lots of very strong beer all night long and got me so drunk I had to stay and sleep it off on the couch till 4 AM!
I gave K the last of the presents I got her, which were a trip to the zoo ( I know she is 21, but she begged me), a plastic adirondack chair in a bright pink color for their apartment's pool area, and a really nice dinner out, with just the two of us, where we celebrated her birthday and my new job . Last night I gave her a small amethyst pendent shaped like a tear drop on a nice white gold chain. She really loved it, and I hope she will have it for many years to come and that it will remind her of this time when she was 21 years old.
Today we go to the country side to visit B's Mom, bringing with us the requested Strawberry mousse birthday cake to continue the birthday celebrations. B's mom lives about half an hour away from the city, in a really nice small country town. She lives there with her sister in an old house surrounded by a beautiful garden with lots of flowers. She is 93 and her sister is 82, and they are both healthy as a horse, God love them! If the weather is nice, we'll have our cake in garden. And if I'm lucky, we'll get back early enough to dump everyone, so that B and I can come back to my place for some private time alone. That would really make my weekend! BTW, have I mention I simply adore B? There, now you know. That is a whole other story right there.

I realise that I am writting a lot of dreary details. Its still new and I am not sure what kind of blog this will be. I am trying to get the "blog" perspective and to open my awareness to things that occur that are interesting enough to write about, without long boring details. Hopefull I will improve with each post. Thank you all for your patience and have a great day!

Monday, July 21, 2008

Life is comming up roses

I had not written anything about my job search, because believe it or not I was depressed about being out of work. Incredible, isn't it? You would think that having the opportunity to leave a low paying job in a small private company, where the owner's wife was the V.P. of Human Resources (or inhuman as I like to say) and how no matter what I did, I was not doing anything right for her, you would think this would be a positive thing. Yes, but I am a responsible person, who will not sleep at night thinking about paying the mortgage and the cable bill. Its just the way I am.

But that has all changed!!! Yes.....I have landed me a job!!!! OMG...you don't know what this means to me! First of all, I will be working, so that means a steady paycheque and that means things like food, keeping my house, gas for the car, and taking the kids to a movie now and then and as a speciial treat, Chinese Buffet! I have warded off the Bag Lady Syndrome for a bit longer.
I am so happy, that I can now talk about how everything is going.
This new job is with a large national company, doing what I know and yet there will be a lot of new things to learn. Changing from a private company to one that is publically traded, changes the way you work in the accounting department. There are lots of new tasks to learn and to re-learn, but I am very excited....can a 50 year old say pumped??
I will be making lots more money and I will have excellent benifits that will cost practically nothing for me. They have a savings type pension and if I work my butt off, they have bonuses too! If you knew the size of my butt, you would understand that this is a double bonus!
The offices are located a bit further away from where I was before, but its a beautiful building, with very nice cubicles, (had to give up an office, but I think its so worth it). I am lucky enough that one of my best friends works there and the piece de resistence? A gym. Yep! you heard right, they have a gym on the premises for the employees. For free.....for employees! I think I have died and gone to heaven. I finally have no more excuses to excersise.

I am seriously considering sending a Thank You note to my previous employer to thank them for kicking me out and waking me up to the infinate work possibilities out there. If it wasn't for them shaking up my world, I would still be there, underpaid, over stressed, and miserable!
I also wanted to thank them for the one month paid vacation and the extra month of pay, that will now help pay off some debt. How many people are lucky enough to get a month off paid....at 50? Not many, let me tell you.

In the meantime, this past week has been very hectic. My kids left last Monday for a 5 week vacation to Greece with their Grandma (Thanks Grandma for this wonderful vacation, they really do appreciate it). I have take a moment here to mention that even though my imediate family immigrated to Canada 46 years ago, most of my extended family is still in Greece and we have gone back to visit for summer vacations many, many times.
For the trip, I was running around like a maniac getting things they needed for their trip, such as sandals and new shoes, so that they wouldn't look like hobos, making sure all their favorite T-Shirts were clean and ready to be packed, and packing the suitcases. Its was very chaotic, but I got it all done and had them ready, and at the airport on Monday. We were on time for a carefree check in, and a chance to sit together for a snack before boarding time. I really wish I was going with them. We would have had a blast, but its just not possible this year. My older son and I were there in 2004, with the Olympics, but my younger son has not visited Greece since he was 4 years old and doesn't remember anything at all from that trip. They have taken their laptops in order to upload photos, but right now they are in a location where there isn't any wireless internet, and so I have to rely on our phone calls for all the latest news.
Tomorrow, my cousin will be taking them to the archeological museum in Athens, and she has scheduled an English speaking tour guide to give them a private tour, just for them. I think they will get a kick out of that!
In a few days they will be going to the small town my mother's family is from, and as its a college town, we think they will be able to find wireless internet to hook into, or barring that, they will have access to an internet cafe. I just can't wait to see all the pictures and video they have so far.
Tomorrow is my first day of work, and I am experiencing equal amounts of joy and terror. Being the mature and strong woman that I am( Ha!), I will take it all in my stride. Please do not look at my shaky knees!
Hope you all have a great day!

Tuesday, July 8, 2008

New Here

Wow, I am 50 and I've just lost my job. Its a first for me, being fired for not having the skills needed to do my job. Especially since I was doing it for 3 years. Its scary, as I have a mortgage, 2 teenagers who live with me every second week and a few bills. But, on the positive side, I do have good work experience and very supportive kids and a most wonderful boyfriend. Lets see if I can find something before my severance pay runs out. Lets see if I can buy groceries, or pay for the gas needed for the interviews. Lets see if I can pay the cell phone bill, or will they come in the middle of the night and repossess it straight out of my hands, as I am begging them if they can look into their evil hearts for one more chance to pay last month's bill. Well, we'll see. I hope I can make it ...only time will tell if the house has to go.
In the meantime, even though I feel guilty about it, I am enjoying having this time off, enjoying the summer weather, and yes even enjoying registering with every personnel agency in town.

So far I've had a few interviews, with no responses yet, and I have two more this week. I am not really interested in these two jobs, because they are six and ten month contracts and I don't want to be tied to a temporary position, if a really good full time job came up. I'll go for the practice and because its better to get all the info before I make a choice, but at this point, it doesn't look good.
I am also trying to find very short term temp jobs, that I can easily give notice, if something good comes along. Sounds like I'm really working hard looking for that job, right? You betcha!
And that's why today I will spending the day at the pool with my cell phone, in expectant anticipation of further interview news!
Have a good day all!!!